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Friendship Bracelets

It’s already the third week of 2023. It officially marks the start of the second semester — the start of a new war 😫 kidding aside, I can’t help but feel excited yet nervous for what’s to come this second semester. The new subjects were all interesting but particularly DIASS, Philosophy, and Personal Development have piqued my interest because of the orientations and meetings that happened during the past week. Despite the interest, the nervousness I feel is kinda taking a toll on me. I couldn’t help but think what if I disappoint myself again because of my grades? I received my grades for the first semester this week, I couldn’t exactly say that I was proud. Sure, I was still part of the honor list, however, I couldn’t stop thinking what if I studied harder? Done better? Those were the thoughts that ran through my head as I carefully observe the difference between my grades for the first and second grading of the first sem. While I did feel a bit disappointed with myself, it was the complete opposite for my friends. From my fellow humanistas to my closest friends, they all made me feel the academic validation that I wanted to tell myself. This week made me realize how meeting new faces and cherishing old faces were important to me and to my growth as a person.

The week was just like usual, I went to my classes and bonded with my friends, but this week just hits differently probably because there were a lot of moments that made me think how grateful I am for the friendships I’ve made during SHS. So, this week, there were two particular events that made my week feel euphoric — the Eliminations for Intramurals and the 18th birthday party of a friend which all happened on Friday.

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As the eliminations happened, we could already feel the start of the Intrams season. At first, I thought I wouldn’t enjoy it, especially since I did not join any sports or maybe because I was in a new environment. It was the complete opposite though, I totally enjoyed cheering for the different teams in Volleyball and Basketball. I also had fun taking pictures of the games, although it was tiring because I had to walk around a lot since both Volleyball and Basketball games happened at the same time. Nevertheless, I had so much fun! I was also proud of my team because they won the volleyball game. Small chika though, I felt like a traitor for cheering one certain player of the other team because I did have a crush on him LMAO. 

Right After Intrams, I was invited to the 18th birthday party of a friend. At first, I didn't want to go because I was kinda nervous. I wasn't particularly close with that friend and his circle of friends, I only had interactions with them because of my close friends who happened to be close with them. In short, I thought I'd feel a bit out of place or awkward around them especially because I found them Intimidated 😭 Unexpectedly though, they were all kind and funny! Some of them entertained us as we walked our way to the place and during the party. Some kept us safe through small actions like the sidewalk rule and even making sure that we ride a taxi safely because it was already late at night. I was kinda sad that I had to go already but I sure did enjoy my time with them. It was nice to bond with new faces. (Sadly, I had no pictures because I got shy to take some 😓)

Overall, this week made me realize that maybe meeting new faces isn’t so bad at all. I was always afraid of making friendships because of the attachment and abandonment issues that I’ve got from my childhood. I’m glad I’ve made some of the coolest friends during the school year, they were all welcoming and provided such a safe space for me. While I did make new friends, I still am grateful that behind my back, I still had my old friends with me in my new school, Mary Ann and Rica. Both of them were always with me, in my silence and in my noise. I’d like to relate the events of this week to certain lyrics from Taylor Swift’s Song, You’re on your own, kid

Well, that wraps up this week's realizations and events. I have no reason to be afraid of being alone because behind my back will always be the friends that I've got. I am forever grateful for the friendships I've made back then, now, and even in the future. Cheers to more Friendship Bracelets! 🥂

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