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Inner Child

This week was really tiring yet it was wholesome. It felt like a lot happened but at the same time, it feels just normal. The week started off with rehearsals for Foundation Day which means lesser school work for me, kidding. So, aside from the foundation day practice, nothing particular happened this day BUT except the fact that me and my friends got labeled as ‘powerpuff girls’ LMAO. I found it cute and corny at the same time, I mean how can I blame them? All three of us wore the same clips and had similar hairstyles. 

Thalia, Ally, and Mary Ann

Tuesday came, after class, we had to go to school again because we had to film for a group activity which was already due the next day so we were already kinda rushed. The funny thing is right after we arrived at school, we didn’t start filming immediately, instead we stayed at the faculty for almost two hours because we were all busy laughing and talking with the teachers (Sir Miguel, Miss Tricia, and Miss Faye) 😭. It felt nice though, it made me feel like I was closer with my teachers more and they felt more of a ‘tropa’ rather than a teacher. Thankfully, we were able to finish filming and we still had spare time so we decided to visit the arts and crafts store just near the school because we found the displays cute LMAO then we decided to eat outside. 

For Wednesday, nothing special happened. It was just rehearsals again for foundation day. Today, I did feel giddy though! During the time that I was at school, I had a package waiting for me. When I came home, it was the merch that I ordered last month. I felt butterflies as I opened the package. I was so happy when I saw the jersey and the photocard that I bought. I wasn’t the type of person to buy merch from the stories I’ve read but after seeing the package, I think buying merch will be my guilty pleasure soon. 😂

Healing the Inner Child

Friday came, I was extra nervous! I had a quiz for Politics and Governance and I also had a counseling activity for DIASS. I did not review nor did I prepare for these activities the day before, I only did during the exact day that it was going to happen. Thankfully though, I still had a perfect store for Polgov. I also felt relieved and somehow healed after the counseling activity. I heard a lot of praises from Sir Miguel that really made me feel good. Even the activity itself, it made the inner child in me feel healed. It felt nice because receiving praises and the feeling of being listened to were some of the things that I wasn’t used to having when I was younger. I was always used to being the one listening and giving compliments. 

While waiting for our turn for the counseling activity

Right after, I had to gaslight myself that I deserve a treat for doing acing the test and the activity in my specialized subjects, and so I did! I bought myself Yowell’s Blessed Berries Yogurt Ice Cream. It was the first time I tried it and it tasted good! Friday originally started off with no plans in our minds, but suddenly, I just found myself walking with my Junior High School friends at the old park we used to hang out at and at the grocery store nearby.

    Suddenly, it felt like I was fifteen again with the same set of friends that I had back then. It felt nostalgic as we walked together laughing at the streets right after our class. It felt good. It really hits different when I'm with my junior high school friends. At the same time, it made me feel a bit sad because when we were in the age ranges 12-16, we had all the time in the world to hang out with each other. One 'Tara' was all it took to be together. But now that we were 17 with different schools, different set of friends, and a much more mature version of ourselves, we couldn't be together all the time again. So, these moments with my jhs friends were something I'd cherish until I grow old.

jhs friends

To end the week, I spent it with my dad, brother, and Rica. We went to the circle of fun in Quezon Memorial Circle. Once again, the inner child in me was healed. As a child, I rarely went to QC Circle nor did I go to parks that had rides. I was grateful that I got to heal and made my inner child happy by spending these moments with my family and with Rica. Big shoutout to her, I really appreciate that she's spending time with me and my family.  So, this week's lyrics are dedicated to the inner child in me. To her who was once a kid and to her who was once fifteen, I hope that as she watches her 17 year old self make memories, she is healed. 

Rica, Ally, Railey, and Daddy.